MY NEW INSPIRATION or #prompt60index with Daisy Yellow Art

After I started the #icad challenge with http://daisyyellowart.com in June/July this year, and even FINISHED it, I was hooked on creating art journal pages for the last weeks, nearly every day.

Lately I am stuck or out of sync with the project. Sitting in front of my art staff not knowing where to begin, what to do and all I would start ending up in a mess.

Today I read a new post on fb of Daisy Yellow Art about the prompt60index and I felt drawn to it immediately. 

I looked for a journal or pages I could use for this project and found an long kept manuscript book, where I jotted down and pasted notes in about writing. I completed a course in short story writing yeaaarrs ago and started to collect notes and ideas in this manuscript. As there are more than half of the pages blank, I will use this journal for this new challenge.

Below find a few pictures of this book as it is right now and I will keep you informed of all my progress to fill in the blank pages in it in time.

Please feel inspired to go to daisyyellowart.com and see what inspiration you can get out of this beautiful blog and group.

For now: be inspired, have fun and create on paper what’s deep inside you. It has a healing side as well.

Lots of love 

    
 

GRATITUDE JOURNALS or my way of spending a few hours in harmony

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image These are 2 of my latest journals I created. I love to loose myself in creating with paper, when I need a few hours to calm down and forgetting….           

I would love to do the ICAD challenge, but need some inspiration and to start tutorials, step by step tutorials or just your ideas and creations tips and tricks. 

I did one card a few days ago, in the dark, before the TV. Theme was rainbows, but I find my card a bit dull. But it is a start, isn’t it? Please send me your ideas and creations . I need to be inspired and motivated.

Thank you so much.

Love and light

Claudia

  

FOR MY FRIEND MARIANNE KEIL or please help and donate

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This is Marianne Keil.

Shortly after this picture was taken in March 2014 at Erindi Game Reserve, where we have spent a lovely long weekend together, she was diagnosed with leukemia.

From one hour to the other she needed to be flown from Windhoek, Namibia to CapeTown for treatment.

As this wasn’t bad enough at all, while the doctors had to do a smaller operation while putting a stand for the chemo therapies, she observed severe burning wounds, as this was done by laser.

By now she had receive a bone marrow transplant from her brother and she is doing relatively well and will come home, if no other complications will occur, at the beginning of 2015.

Now the family is burdened with huge medical bills, as the medical aid has been depleted long ago.

To help her and her family to cope with the bills, the Cancer Association here in Namibia founded THE MARIANNE KEIL TRUST FUND. Several events have been held so far to raise money for the Fund. But there is still a huge hole to be covered.

I asked myself what I could do to help and raise money and I found a way.

As I am a Reiki healer, Reiki II, and have a website, blog and online shop, I just added A Marianne Keil Special to my online shop. Reiki Healing Information here.

If you want to help and add to the fund here is a way for people around the world to do it.

If you will buy the special for 10.00 dollars, you will receive a distance Reiki healing session for 15 minutes every week until 31.12.2014 via my Reiki Note book, where I already have a few names in and I am sending Reiki Healing to everybody who is written in the book at least every Monday for 15 minute and sometimes more, as I send Reiki to it immediately as soon as I add a new name

I feel this is a really wonderful idea. You will not only do a good deed, but you will even receive something if you donate to the Fund.

I will pay at least 50 % of all money collected through this Marianne Keil Special offer to the Fund and will keep you updated and I will post all transactions or cheques I will pay over to the Fund here on the blog.

Additionally I want to ask you to press it, re- blog and share this post to all your followers and friends.

I suppose there is not one of us out here in the blogging world who does not know a loved one who has or had cancer, or even died of it.  So please help me here, to be a great help to my friend and family by donating.

If you want to donate and receive the Reiki Treatment, please state your name and one word conditions for what you would like the treatment for, e.g. Marianne Keil, Cancer, or financial, or trauma….. and if you do not want to receive Reiki Healing, please also state it and I will contribute the whole amount to the fund.

For all other Reiki Healing sessions on my online shop and also for the one on ones here for Windhoek people, I will donate for all other Treatments bought and booked 50 % to the Marianne Keil Fund.

Want to do something special, a good deed for others and something special for yourself at the same time? Please buy and book a session with me now, as I only have limited appointments per week available.

 

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Hurry up. Be special all around…..

Love and light

Claudia

 

 

 

 

VIR MATTHIAS of as jou hart sing

When I was on a lodge

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with my husband a few weeks ago, I tried to write something in afrikaans for my beloved son Matthias.

Matthias loved afrikaans music as much as I do.

On our way to the lodge I heard afrikaans music and the lyrics kept spinning around in my head.

Sitting quietly outside my bungalow, I tried to write down what I was feeling.

Here are a few words, for all my afrikaans music loving friends and family.

 

ek sit hier alleen en elke grashalm sing jou wysie

elke voeltjie sing jou lietjie

ek is daar by jou

ek sien jou in die groen van die bos en my hart is vol

ek hoor jou fluister

ek is daar by jou

ek sien jou in elke wonderlike skoonlappertjie

wat rond om my vlieg

en ek weet

jy vlieg saam

hoog hoog bo die donker wolke

wat my hart laat staan

en my lewe duister maak

tog my engeltjie vlieg hoog

verby die donker wolke

en jy vat my saam in die lig

laat die sonstrale weer in my hart skyn

wat vir my se

ek is daar by jou

in elke reen druppeltjie

in elke sonstral

in die vars lug na die reen

is ek daar by jou

en ek voel my hart is vol

vol vrede en tros

vol van liefde van jou

ek is daar by jou

roep die wonders van die wereld

ek is daar by jou

en my hart voel lig

en die donkerheid verdwyn

vlieg hoog my kind

vat my hart saam

en wys my die lig

wat alles beter maak

 

Ek weet nie of all die woorde so geskryf word, maar dit is nie belangrik, solank ek en jy weet, wat ek bedoel

 

vlieg hoog my kind, vlieg hoog

my hart is vol liefde, vol van jou

vir altyd

 

jou Ma

 

 

TRYING TO STAY POSITIVE or the middle way will do

 

 

Reading a facebook post today saying:

trying to see the positive site of life is not so easy

got me into thinking.

I always “preach” the positive thinking, re-post positive quotes, reading and collecting books about positivity like

Abraham- Hicks

Chicken soup for the soul

The Secret and the sequels thereof

Doreen Virtue’s Angel books

Dr. John F. Demartini books

to name a few of my favorites.

And of course everything my dear friend Jutta Dobler writes.

 

But Am I living it as well as I “preach”it?

 

I thought so, but lately there are a few things bothering me a lot.

And this is the problem. Should I name it? Should I tell it? Or should I find a different approach to it? Is it only my Ego speaking, wanting to hurt me? Or is it just me, the whole me, body and soul, who is telling me to get it out, so it can start healing again?

After a few weeks of consideration and reading the sad post on facebook today, I feel obliged, by what or whoever, but I feel I have to write about it. and so be it.

 

Where do I stand here? After nearly 22 month since my beloved son Matthias died?

 

I have been on and off Prozac or equivalent to it, which made me gain over 15 kg. After my latest breakdown in April last year, I had to take double doses to cope. I am off Prozac since November last year again, started smoking instead, to get rid off the restless legs/ panic attacks feelings, which I still get in the evenings. Or I started smoking instead of eating my way through this awful feelings in the evening, to avoid more weight gain. And to try to reduce my weight.

Why? I always say it is not the outside but the inside what counts!!! And still people with their thoughtless comments about being overweight, being on a diet, not eating what they actually love to eat, just to stay thin and unhealthy!

Yes, unhealthy, not being overweight is unhealthy, being too thin is also unhealthy and an addiction. At least in my opinion.

Still I am trying to lose weight and cannot find out, if I am doing it for myself or just to please people, to avoid their comments and the way they look at me.

Or is it just the way I perceive it? Take on their views of it?

I am not doing only unhealthy things to lose weight, but also trying to eat and drink healthy food. I am trying to adapt the vegetarian diet and want to achieve to be a raw food eater. Drinking a lot of lemon water, eating and drinking coconut oil (a teaspoon full into coffee is very delicious) and trying to adapt healthier and cheaper ways of cleaning my house, e.g. vinegar and baking soda.

What about exercise? Good question. I am trying, but I finally realised that the trauma and all the medication had an effect on my physical body. Not that I was an exercise freak before, but sometimes I feel as if I am years and years older than I am actually am. I cannot get up out of a chair without experiencing joint pains all over. My feet hurt, my knees hurt, my back hurts.I guess a side effect from all the Prozac? Or is this true, that a huge trauma can change your DNA overall? Please comment on this subject, if you have heard about it or experienced it as well.

And still, my answer to the question:

How are you?

is always:

Fine.

And it seems, that is the answer some people are glad to hear. They expect it to hear. Oh, she is on Prozac, she should be fine…..so we can go on with our lives. Be it in person or via social media…..the people want to hear a lie, or so it occurs to me. Why would they ask then a question like that and be happy with my answer?

I could tell them over and over again, that I am not fine. I could tell them about my aches and pains, but do they actually want to hear it, or is it me, who does not want to get cut off, by their answer and avoid the truth:

Oh yeah, I also have this and this and this…..

I know that they care, but still I feel offended some times. Not understood. Being alone.

Even if I am emotional on a good track, I love my work with the kids, it keeps me going. My own kids are keeping me going. I can live with the loss of my son now, but this does not mean, that I will ever, ever forget him, will forever miss him, will ever and ever have the missing piece in my heart. Will forever be hurt by the loss of my child and the ignorance of some people around me, who I feel, treat me as:

Oh, Prozac, good she is fine, we can go on. No need to be there for her anymore, Prozac will do that job now.

Maybe I am wrong about that and as I have said, I know that certain people really care, but they do not show it to me. Or I cannot longer see it.

Maybe that is also only my perception of the situation.

I tried to figure out, if this is only my ego speaking and a few times I could turn it off before, but as it comes up time and again, I needed to tell it today.

 

My kids are the only hold I have and I will forever stand behind them and do whatever I can to make them happy.

I work really hard and so does my husband and we spent and forever will spend all our money on them. We did this before the accident and we will continue it now. Money has not the same grip on me as before the accident anyway.  But this is hard to understand for some people. And actually I feel I do not have to explain myself here.

I am glad that my eldest son studied for 4 years and did not graduate due to the trauma of loosing his brother. Some say waste of money. I say, you cannot take the knowledge away, or give knowledge to someone due to a piece of paper.

I am glad that he got the offer of his best friend’s father to work for them in the panel beating/spray-painting department, to learn it from scratch.

Even if this is not what he had studied.

I am so grateful, that he is “back”. Alive, happy in his own way.

That is all that counts for me, not the lost money I have spent on his studies or that he has no graduation papers. I know what he is capable of and I need no more proof to just show off to the world.

 

My youngest son is in Germany at the moment, doing temp work for a year now, earning his own living. He is still looking for the right profession to learn.

Some call him to have an attitude and that he should take whatever comes his way.

I say, I am proud of him, not doing so, even if it would mean to pay all my money into his bank account to cover his monthly costs.

He has more or less a dream what he wants to achieve and to become, so he should go for it, even if he has to say NO a few times to opportunities, which would not be his dream carrier, but would earn him money.

So let him have an attitude, but he knows what he wants and lets nothing else stand in his way to reach it, just to please other people.

And this is called courage.

I have no fat bank account behind my name, but I would give all I have to him, in order to help him reach his dreams. And also for his big brother.

I do not ask rent or grocery money from my kids.

I do buy them clothes on my account.

I fill up the petrol tank for them and I am so grateful for every year they still spend at home with us.

This is not payable by any amount of money!

I will buy my child a ticket to come home for Christmas from my bonus every year, even if it means that I could not have a holiday on my own. To be with my son means more to me than money at the bank or a holiday at the beach.

Spoiled? Cannot work with money?

No!

The well-being and the presence of my kids around me are all I need to live. And I so bitterly know, that money cannot buy everything. Even paying for a medical aid for years, couldn’t bring the ambulance, who might could saved Matthias’ life, in time to the accident scene.

In return I am getting all their love. And if they are unconditionally happy, even for a short time, gives me another step back into live. My kids are everything to me. And unconditional happiness is so rare in our lives since Matthias died, that we have to treasure it more than all the money in the world.

 

Where does this bring me back on the positive track again?

 

I guess it is still the fact that counts:

It is not the things people do or say to you which are hurting you, but your own perception of it.

But on the other hand:

 

Don’t do just to please others.

Speak your mind, carefully, and I hope I did here, to get a clear conscious again and to go on then.

 

The secret is to find the balance in all of it.

For me:

 

I have told what was lying heavy on my chest for a long time and while writing this post, my migraine was healed miraculously.

 

For you:

 

Feel free to take out of this post whatever you need along the way, or just ignore.

Your choice.

 

And for the writer of the starter facebook sentence:

Don’t be so hard on you. It is fine to have a bad day once in a while and hang out in sentimental and melancholic avenue, just make sure you turn out of it into the middle way again. Lots of love.

 

 

Love and light

Claudia

Feel free to visit my Reiki Website here

http://www.claudia-schonmetzler.com/320335789/1739309/posting/the-all-important-reiki-message

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

DO YOU HAVE A STRONG WILLPOWER or changing habits are not easy

The first month of 2014 is nearly over and I went back to work this week.

My son Frank went back to Germany yesterday and we are more or less back into our daily routine.

Routine I thought, how boring. So I decided to do something about it. Change the daily routine as easy as that.

Easy? Yes, just change your daily habits, I thought.

What is a habit? I once read that if you do something continuously for 21 days it becomes a habit.

So one of my habits is to set the alarm for a specific time in the morning, but when it gets off, I press snooze once or twice, before I actually get out of bed and into the shower. I could easily change that to setting the alarm to the precise time I need to get up and jump out of bed straight away, couldn’t I? I could even take a bath instead of a shower.

And when I am done in the bathroom, running into the kitchen to make coffee, I could brew some tea instead. I am not eating breakfast in the mornings, So I could start doing it, or I could implement some running on my  trainer before taking a shower or do yoga for half an hour.

Changing your routine or habits sounds easy, but why aren’t we doing it? Why are we clinging to the same old habits day in day out and moaning about them?

It all has to do with willpower. And this is tricky. If I for instance set the alarm precisely to 5.15am  getting up straight away, instead of 5 am and snoozing a few minutes, I would lose a few minutes of comfortable snuggling and dreaming before emerging into the real world, which for the moment is sort of rewarding to me. So I need to reward me for getting up straight away after the alarm went off?

Could be the answer. But what could the reward be for getting up immediately?

And isn’t it falling from one habit into another?

I am a little bit confused here.

Maybe a bad example, but this is exactly what I want to change!

Getting up early. Getting some exercise. Shower or taking a bath, before the next exchange of habits could take place.

Drinking tea instead of coffee, eating or drinking (I am juicing lately, only my juicer and food processor broke simultaneously last week) breakfast and driving a few minutes earlier to work than I would need to. Meaning arriving relaxed and doing things consciously.

What would  my reward be for this?

I would be more composed. Have less stress. Could have a few minutes me-time in the mornings, just sitting outside listening to the quietness. Starting the daily routine with a calmer me.

Shouldn’t this be reward enough?

I will keep you informed about this, maybe on a weekly base. Could be another change of action, couldn’t it?

 

What would you change in your daily routine, just to make your day a little bit brighter for the rest of the year?

 

Why not trying Reiki to relax, stay healthy and get rid off bad habits?

I offer distance Reiki healing and one on one sessions for people in Windhoek/Namibia. Please click here for more information.

 

So lets do it.

Get some changes done and be proud of ourselves for having a strong willpower.

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Claudia

HOW TO DECORATE FOR THE CHRISTMAS SEASON ANYWAY….

So tomorrow the Christmas Season starts officially with the first advent and it is also my birthday.
A time I was anxious about this year, because it is the first time without my son Matthias.
People who are following me and knowing me a bit longer know, for all new followers, my son Matthias died in a car crash on 25.5.2012. He was only 21.
At first I did not want to decorate the house or celebrate my birthday at all.
Then I decided a little bit of decoration couldn’t harm and some people are coming over for coffee tomorrow.
And I even created some decorations, which include Matthias in every way.

This is my advent wreath this year.
With photo of Matthias, the little candle holder pots are coming from an advents calendar he had won years ago on a Christmas market and the salt dough decorations, which are glued on the vase, were a present from him. He made them with his teacher in boarding school still.

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This is the little corner close to our dinning table ( supposed to be a dinning table, but is used for several other activities).
The pot with the red candle shows a photo of Matthias and his brother Ralph, which I “decoupaged” a few weeks ago…

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This is close to the entrance. The photo of him are usually hanging on the wall a little bit higher and the beautiful candle holder is a present of some friends from Germany who knew Matthias very well.

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And this is a vase, which my son Frank bought shortly after Matthias’ death and since then it always holds a candle inside, which we light every evening

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So all decoration has some story to tell about Matthias and he is not forgotten ( even if he will anyway never been forgotten…)

Are you including your loved and missed ones in this years Christmas celebration and decoration in a similar way?

photos and comments below are appreciated.

God bless!