FOR MY FRIEND MARIANNE KEIL or please help and donate



This is Marianne Keil.

Shortly after this picture was taken in March 2014 at Erindi Game Reserve, where we have spent a lovely long weekend together, she was diagnosed with leukemia.

From one hour to the other she needed to be flown from Windhoek, Namibia to CapeTown for treatment.

As this wasn’t bad enough at all, while the doctors had to do a smaller operation while putting a stand for the chemo therapies, she observed severe burning wounds, as this was done by laser.

By now she had receive a bone marrow transplant from her brother and she is doing relatively well and will come home, if no other complications will occur, at the beginning of 2015.

Now the family is burdened with huge medical bills, as the medical aid has been depleted long ago.

To help her and her family to cope with the bills, the Cancer Association here in Namibia founded THE MARIANNE KEIL TRUST FUND. Several events have been held so far to raise money for the Fund. But there is still a huge hole to be covered.

I asked myself what I could do to help and raise money and I found a way.

As I am a Reiki healer, Reiki II, and have a website, blog and online shop, I just added A Marianne Keil Special to my online shop. Reiki Healing Information here.

If you want to help and add to the fund here is a way for people around the world to do it.

If you will buy the special for 10.00 dollars, you will receive a distance Reiki healing session for 15 minutes every week until 31.12.2014 via my Reiki Note book, where I already have a few names in and I am sending Reiki Healing to everybody who is written in the book at least every Monday for 15 minute and sometimes more, as I send Reiki to it immediately as soon as I add a new name

I feel this is a really wonderful idea. You will not only do a good deed, but you will even receive something if you donate to the Fund.

I will pay at least 50 % of all money collected through this Marianne Keil Special offer to the Fund and will keep you updated and I will post all transactions or cheques I will pay over to the Fund here on the blog.

Additionally I want to ask you to press it, re- blog and share this post to all your followers and friends.

I suppose there is not one of us out here in the blogging world who does not know a loved one who has or had cancer, or even died of it.  So please help me here, to be a great help to my friend and family by donating.

If you want to donate and receive the Reiki Treatment, please state your name and one word conditions for what you would like the treatment for, e.g. Marianne Keil, Cancer, or financial, or trauma….. and if you do not want to receive Reiki Healing, please also state it and I will contribute the whole amount to the fund.

For all other Reiki Healing sessions on my online shop and also for the one on ones here for Windhoek people, I will donate for all other Treatments bought and booked 50 % to the Marianne Keil Fund.

Want to do something special, a good deed for others and something special for yourself at the same time? Please buy and book a session with me now, as I only have limited appointments per week available.


One more pictures of our trip to Erindi.IMG_2320

Hurry up. Be special all around…..

Love and light







MY INNER VOICE or trust and believe

Lately I am working a lot more on my iPad. I just downloaded the WordPress app and feel drawn to write a little update.
So let’s see what is new around here.

First of all I am off my Prozac like medication (again…) and it feels great. On Thursday the mark of counting climbed to 2 years and 4 month. Nearly 2 1/2 years,since my son Matthias gained angel wings and I had to give my best every day to survive. It was not easy and we experienced lots of ups and downs, as the followers of my blog can recall. (Any first time readers, please feel free to scroll to my posts and add your lovely comments and if you like what you see, please follow me on my journey)

The all over situation here is more or less ok. I’m feeling a little depleted nowadays, I kind of lost all my zest and energy concerning my job in the kindergarten. I’m trying to figure it out, but cannot come to any solution.
I so thought this job would be the optimal one, a permanent one, my life purpose, the children. Why do I feel I have to move on again? Am I overdoing my motto
“Do what you love / listen to your inner voice” too seriously? Aren’t there situations you should ignore it for the practical issues, like I have a secure income and the working hours and holiday times are very convenient? I’m lost here. What more do I want? Is it only a spur of a moment feeling, because my energy reserves are depleted? Fact is there is a change in management to come, which I am uncomfortable with. Is this a reason to my unhappiness? Is this reason enough to give in? Or should I ignore my inner voice and think reasonable?
Another fact is, my family and some friends would freak out, if I would quit. This is for sure. They have seen me bloom in the last 1 1/2 year since I have started this job. They would not understand it at all and will for sure convince me to stay. This it what makes it so difficult for me. They have seen me happy and content in the last year. It was a huge step back into life for me and I guess also for them. Seeing me being “happy again” must have helped them on their ways too. And I am grateful for that. We deserved that all together after this tragic accident. To finally see a tiny bit of light at the end of the tunnel.
But what is the big picture behind all this? The signs and messages I receive from Matthias are that he died to help me on my way. To gain more knowledge about what really is. He died to show me the path to the Universe. To see the truth. To open my narrow minded consciousness. Just like Jesus did. He died for me so that I can rise above the believes we were taught throughout our whole lifetime. Starting the second we were born. And forgetting our true abilities. To forget who we really are, what we really are. Love and light.
This is Matthias’ mission. This was his first message to me, when I turned my unbearable grief towards the Universe via taking Reiki sessions shortly after he died. It didn’t make so much sense then, but I am surely must have been more conscious now to see behind the veil to understand the full meaning of all there is. And I feel obliged to take on Matthias’ offer with all I am.
Actually this erases out all my previous question above. How wonderful writing your thoughts down can turn out. It always amazes me how inspiring writing is. And the immediate messages you are getting afterwards.
Now all makes sense again.
This doesn’t mean that I will quit head over heals now. I have to let patience and time work for me. And I have to trust and believe and remind myself daily to be grateful for all I have. In time the right doors will open for me and I will see new opportunities coming my way abundantly in all 7 areas of my life.
I thank my beloved son Matthias for all he has done for me and for always putting me back on the right tracks. And I thank the Angels for helping me to be patient, which is not my biggest attribute, and to trust my inner voice and never forget to just believe in miracles.

For now,
Love and Light to all of you


BACK TO THE ROOTS or my new passion to share gratefulness

I hope everybody reading this had a wonderful Christmas Season and a Happy New Year.

The new year is already a few days old and most of our New Year resolutions are forgotten already.

Or are you clinging to them this year trying to get them going?

I did, at least with one of my few resolutions. I wanted to share my gift Reiki with as much people around the world as possible.

And I did. I found a way to do it. Here it is:

My new website and online shop

After my son Matthias died, I found Reiki or Reiki found me, as I love to say. And this was the best thing which could have happened to me.

My Reiki teacher Jutta Dobler is a wonderful person, She taught me Reiki I nearly a year ago.

A few month after that, I again had  a nervous breakdown and was back  on drugs, anti depressive, Prozac or equivalent to it. Double dose. And I was fine for a while.

I found myself a new, meaningful job, I am working at a kindergarten again, and the kids and also my team are giving me so much to live for again. I am mostly feeling heal again, or at least as long as I am in kindergarten or around the team.

So I decided to stop the drugs again, I did not want to merely function again due to the anti depressive. I wanted to stand on my own feet again, if you know what I mean with this phrase.

And I found back to the roots. I was again hooked on Reiki and asked my teacher, if we could do REIKI II.

Getting a group together, who were equally interested in doing REIKI II, she offered a workshop and here I am, being a REIKI PRACTITIONER, able to share Reiki with everyone who is willing and interesting in it.

Problem was, only a few friends and family were eager to come for sessions and I felt I could  not ask them anything for a session. I enjoyed doing the sessions and felt always very light and happy afterwards, but even posting lots of ads on facebook and hanging a few flyer around, I could not attract more clients. Even if I was so grateful and enthusiastic about giving sessions, the clients wouldn’t come.

Talking to my teacher Jutta about this, she identified the problem. The balance of giving and receiving was out. As I felt I couldn’t ask any money for my service of giving Reiki to friends and family, not deciding what would be appropriate to ask other clients, thus mostly not receiving any in return, the balance was not given.

My vision is to share as much of the unconditional love and healing power of Reiki with as much people throughout the world as possible for the highest good of all. So the benefits of distance Reiki healing knocked at my door, which I was able to do now after I successfully received the REIKI II attunement and my certificate of completing the REIKI II workshop.


I thought of opening a website with an online shop for distance Reiki healing sessions to buy.

It would give me the opportunity to share my gift and light


with a lot of people and I would reach people, who would not have the time or opportunity to go to a Reiki Healer in person to receive the wonderful feeling of  Reiki.

And here my wonderful idea is alive

Tonight I finished the website and put it online.

Please feel free to click on the link and give your personal impression and comments. Feel free to share the site with people in need for a Reiki session or book one for yourself, your friends, family or pets.

Help me to keep my light shining for the highest good of all.

May you have the time of your life during 2014 and beyond.



Our new family member ABBY, a white labrador puppy……

Best Moment Award (March 23, 2013) | Moment Matters

Best Moment Award (March 23, 2013) | Moment Matters.

Hi, this is another award, I will be proudly displaying in my sidebar and awarding 15 other lovely, inspiring blogs are my absolute delight to do.

Thank you

Best Moment Award, web awards, blogging awards, winners, nominations

Awarding the people who live in the moment,
The noble who write and capture the best in life,
The bold who reminded us what really mattered –
Savoring the experience of quality time.


Winners re-post this completely with their acceptance speech. This could be written or video recorded.

Winners have the privilege of awarding the next awardees! The re-post should include a NEW set of people/blogs worthy of the award; and winners notify them the great news.


  • What makes a good acceptance speech?
    • Gratitude. Thank the people who helped you along the way
    • Humor. Keep us entertained and smiling
    • Inspiration. Make your story touch our lives
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Hi everybody

I am so proud and pleased that my blog, which is really close up and personal, finds so many readers who appreciates my open heart writing.

It is almost 1 year now, that my son died in a car crash and writing about it as it is, helped me a lot, but getting so many comments and lovely thoughts from all over the world, from ‘strangers’ are so wonderful and you all helped me pushing through every step I had to go without my beloved son. I am really, really grateful for that and I hope, I am also an inspiration and help for other families going through the same or similar trauma and nightmares.

Thank you very much and

be blessed.

Love and light


THE WINNERS OF THE BEST MOMENT AWARD ARE: randomly selected from all of my followers

  1. Searching For The Happiness
  2. Make Believe Boutique
  3. the wind horse blog
  4. Seth Adam Smith
  5. Soul Train
  6. Winter Owls
  7. joannerambling
  8. Living Simply Free
  9. 5thingstodotoday
  10. Africa far and wide
  11. becomeanauthor
  12. Fun girls live better!
  13. Parenting And Stuff
  14. Jutta

Don’t forget to celebrate with your followers! Tweet your success with hashtag #MomentMatters. Congratulations, winners!


Today is a public holiday here in Namibia: Independence Day

And this is how I spent the holiday:


Going to my favorite cafe: THE TEAPOT in Ferreiras Nursery

Photo0448Where I had breakfast with my son Ralph



I had the health muffins, but as the service was a bit slow today, when the muffins arrived I already had two cappuccino and I was full.

We took the muffins home in a ‘doggy bag’ and my son ate it in the afternoon, while I was visiting a dear friend.

Whenever we go the this cafe inside the nursery, I buy a flowering pot plant to set aside on the side board for Matthias





Coming back to a dear friend.

I haven’t seen my friend Manuela in a few month. Shortly after Matthias died, I wasn’t able to face a few people in my life, but today I had the impulse to call her and ask her if I could come by for coffee. She is actually living around the corner from where I stay, but I hadn’t the energy or strength to see her, as I was too busy with my own problems and coping with the trauma of losing a child and couldn’t stand to listen to somebody else problems.

Today I felt drawn to her and found the strength to face her again. Felt strong enough to listen to her problems and ups and downs in life and felt good to be there for her. And I am glad I did. We talked for hours and if she wouldn’t have to pick up her son I guess I would still be sitting there.

But as I said, she is just living around the corner and I am sure that we will see each other more often from now on.

Thank you Manuela for understanding my absence, even if we didn’t talk about it at all, but we chatted away immediately as if we have never been apart for month’.

I am glad I can face life and all ups and downs again and be of help just by listening to other people’s concerns.

Without getting treated by Neuro Balance, I wouldn’t be so far now and I am grateful to have done it, even it was quiet expensive, but it is worse every cent.


Have a great weekend (guess I can wish this already, as tomorrow is Friday)

and lots of love and light to all of you.






The last week was a bit tough.

On Tuesday Ralph was admitted to hospital getting his knee surgery done (repair of acl), which he had torn during Christmas while participating in the annual Christmas Cup Soccer in Swakopmund.

As soon as the knee is healed a bit (six weeks) and getting used to the daily physio, which is crucial to get it back in shape and to normal usage, he will also take a gap year, most probably going to Germany as well.

As Ralph studied Sports Management and Coaching and Sports Conditioning Fitness Trainer, he knows about the physio exercises and is doing well. His goal is to play soccer again at the 2013 Christmas Cup in Swakopmund.

Friday I started my new career as an estate agent seeing a few clients on Saturday already and now I am more or less relaxing at home and finding some time to do a new post.

Not sitting in front of the PC from 8-5 anymore, using my lunch time to write posts and surf in blogger world (as I stayed at work during lunch) I neglected the blog a bit the last few days.

And now I am going to post some images of the last days  for you to see what we where up to here in Namibia.

urbnThe Logo of my new work:

IMG-20130226-WA0002Ralph shortly after the operation and his knee

IMG-20130226-WA0001IMG-20130227-WA0006trying to crochet baby booties, unfortunately all came out differently, so I decided to buy the real baby wool and the correct size hook and voila

IMG-20130227-WA0007a nice pair of ballerinas for my baby niece in Ireland

IMG_1025images of last Sundays outing to a family friend on a plot outside Windhoek

IMG_1044her lovely herb garden, suffering from the heat wave and no rain in sight

IMG_1045my favorite: Lavender, my little lavender plant unfortunately died , guess the decoupage pot was too small..

IMG_1058Ethean, my niece’s second child

IMG_1063and his big brother Tyler

IMG_1067and their mother, my niece Michelle

IMG_1073Tyler’s little friends, who can remember these PEZZI SWEETS  holders? I used to love them.

IMG_1088my husband and


IMG-20130301-WA0004Sabina, my little niece in Ireland, she will wear the crochet ballerinas

IMG-20130302-WA0001a nice cappuccino I had on Saturday, even if I am mostly drinking tea now, every now and then I cannot resist one

IMG-20130302-WA0007Frank and my Mom in Germany on sight-seeing, viewing a huge passenger ship in Papenburg, he always sends images via Whats app

IMG-20130302-WA0004The ship

Photo0347and last but not least an image of my beloved son Matthias, always on our minds, being away from us for more than 9 month now.


I wish you a lovely Sunday and a good start into the next week.

I will be out and  about around Windhoek on Monday, trying to find new properties.

Wish me luck.

Love and light











QUANTUM SUCCESS or coincidences

It is nearly two weeks now, since my son Frank left home (Windhoek, Namibia) to take a gap year in Germany.

This is the last photo I took of him leaving home, on our way to the air port


and this is a photo of Frank with his older brother Ralph and his father at the airport


Luckily nowadays we have What’s app, FB and Skype to keep in touch daily. Still it was hard to get used to, having again, one ‘man’ less in my daily life. Sitting at his desk in his room, looking at all the photos and deco he positioned on the walls, I decided I can sit here and be gloomy and melancholy every day or do something about it.

So first thing after Frank left, I signed myself into a Yoga course to start with. Today is my second lesson and I am kind of looking forward to it.

People who know me better, can confirm, that this is a huge step forward, especially after the death of Matthias.

I usually sit around at home (when not working), not because I have to, but because I prefer to. I love my home, or used to, but after the death of Matthias coming home, being at home strains me. I feel a shadow overcasting me as soon as I am on my way home or entering it. I feel uncomfortable, restless and unhappy.

I seldom cook anymore, which was the first thing I did after coming home from work, making sure that my men would have a warm meal ready, when they would come home from work.
That’s why I tried so many different  art & crafts during the past month, to distract me from the dreariness.

Secondly the book QUANTUM SUCCESS, which one of Ralph’s friend borrowed a few years ago, I already had forgotten about it altogether, turned up again unexpectedly. This was no coincidence, as I do not believe in coincidences.

After reading through a few chapters at once, I suddenly realized again, that I do not need a Frank around me to be happy, I do not need a lot of money to be happy, I do not need a certain lounge set or dinner table to be happy or to have a size 34 figure. These are all things which could enhance my life, but these are not the items I must have before I could be happy. These are all but attachments, I should not cling too, I should not rely on.

Shift your awareness. Breath (Yoga speaking through me already… :)) and be content with what you already have, what is around you and see that all other wishes, hopes and goals fall in place eventually.

You are what your dominate thoughts are, so think happy , think positively, think I am alive, thank you!

Photo0391Okapuka Ranch near Windhoek, where we had dinner the evening before Frank went to Germany

Photo0388Unfortunately I only could take two photos with my cellphone, before the battery went off.

Have a lovely week,

Just heard that Yoga classes are cancelled for today, so I will do some poses at home and ask my husband to take photos. If something worthwhile comes up, you will see it in the next post.

Love and Light